Take a Risk, Take a Chance, Make a Change...

As Kelly Clarkson once said...take a risk, take a chance, make a change....and breeeeaaaakaaawwwaaayyyyy. 

Alright, karaoke session is over for sec.  But K. Clark's lyrics make a good point, and that is that change won't happen unless you make it.  It can be scary, but moreso, it's exciting and, dare I say, necessary. 

And it's high time I take a risk.  

"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly..."

This is going to sound like a tired phrase from an awful rom-com, but during the last few weeks of 2014, I could sense that something big was about to happen. Change was literally in the air. Maybe it was because 2014 bred so much negativity, or maybe it was just the unseasonable warmth...but I felt the need to act on it. 

I was #blessed with a fantastic boss and coworkers, and had the incredible opportunity to work in a creative environment with some of the best designers, illustrators, and writers in the entertainment world.  But the long hours and stressful environment always made me question what the hell I was doing there. Is any of this worth it? I would ask myself every morning, noon, and night.  In a sense, it was. I learned so much, not only about my industry, but about myself. I worked with the most fun-loving, encouraging people around.  But I quickly reached a ceiling, and got bored.  Plus, the stress stagnated the creative energy, motivation, and inspiration I once had. No matter how much I loved my friends and how much I laughed each day, I couldn't help but feel trapped.  

In short, I was growing tired of the knock-down-drag-out days that seemed to be taking more out of me than they were giving. 

"Out of the darkness and into the sun..."

I've learned a few important lessons in my relatively short life. 

One is: trust your gut. Trust that every challenge is leading to a great reward, as long as you keep moving forward. Believe that the trials and tribulations are temporary. The greater the obstacle, the better the outcome - trust this. The universe may seem to work in mysterious ways, but if you can work through the hard times, your reward will be that of unmatched happiness. 

This past year, it felt at times that my life was snowballing out of control, and for the first time in my life, I felt a bit depressed. But once I took a step out of my own head to look at the bigger picture, I realized that everything was happening for a reason. Each "event" - every tear, every letdown, every moment of frustration - was part of a very important puzzle. It took me some time, but once I connected the dots, I finally realized something big was coming in my future - it was just up to me to make it happen. Which leads me to my second point...

The second is: you control your life. Only you. No one is going to make your dreams come true. If you want change, you have to toss the security blanket and get a little uncomfortable. So after years of dissatisfaction, my mind and soul were itching for big changes. Big risks, even. 

"And maaaaaake aaaaaaaa chaaaaanngeee..." 

It was then I decided, I'm not going to do anything that sucks for awhile. 

So, I quit my job. 

I bought a one-way ticket to a different country. 

I tossed everything holding me back. Packed the bare necessities. Cleaned out my apartment.  Said my goodbyes. 

And I'm out. 

I'll return when I'm good and ready. Maybe. Who knows - maybe I'll be drawn to the road, or find somewhere or something (or someone? {kidding, ma}) that captures my heart. In one word, the next few months will be: unpredictable. Which, after so many years or hard work, safety, and routine, is the perfect vocab word to fill the blank space in my story. 

I'll occasionally be posting from the road on all the cool shit we'll be doing...until then, I ask the question: what can you do to change your life and "breakaway" today?